A Love Letter to God,

From my other bl og 🙂 blessed day everyone!

A Beautiful Mess...

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We have walked together before, haven’t we?  So many days since that time in my life I have missed You, and almost every day since…I have thought about you.  I do love you and you are the one love of my life I cannot seem to live without.  I have tried to walk away, I have tried to find a matter of purpose by and through other means and I have tried to do it all with the conviction upon my heart and the wisdom to know why it never works.  But I simply need you.  I am at the bottom of everything right about now and everything I do, every choice I make, every time I fail I am reminded of how small I am.  Which leads me to today and my recognition of how big of a God that You are.  I am not coming before You to…

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Sanity in Sorrow…

clip_image002[6]I thought I would share with you my Journal entry from last night since it concerns a whole lot of you. It seems like 2013 has been a pretty rough year for the mass. Every time I turn around someone, somewhere is dealing with sorrow. Whether it is through loss, conflict or struggle I cannot ignore that the opportunity to encourage, support and perhaps give strength arises with every morning’s sunrise.

When I speak to you, when I find a word that soothes you, it is because I know it because I have experienced it and I wish to at least be a voice in your room with your problems. So much of life is darkness it can overwhelm us and we will lose our focus of the light in the corner of the room. Our eyes are pouring tears and our view becomes distorted. We lose sight of what is around us, what beauty is and we forget the strength that has carried us this far. We must always keep one thing in mind for our own sanity.

A problem only becomes a tragedy when we forget who we are among them.

You are the person that you tell yourself you are every day. Don’t lose yourself in the light of someone else’s eye. Mistakes are your guideline, not your content. Flaws are your balance to your strengths, not your anchor. Your environment is your opportunity not your obstacle. Your time is not written on a clock, it’s written by experience. Age doesn’t take your beauty…bad choices do.

Sometimes knowing who I am is all I have had to hold onto.

I’m not who you tell me that I am or who you think I am…most of you don’t know me. You may know the things I have done, the mistakes that I have made, the conversations that we have had, the way that I was raised…you may know the story of my life but I guarantee I am a stranger to 98% of you (including my own family). Everyone wants to tell us who we are. It is a terrible human condition that makes them feel knowledgeable and insightful. The truth is, it is usually an ignorant assumption of what they see not what they know.

You are not your sorrow or the conflict that created it. You are the person that is going to bring you up out of it you are the answer to it. You are how you are going to react to it, what you are going to do because of it and the person that will be standing on the other side of it. Character doesn’t create problems, character overcomes them. Don’t take the problem to your soul…bring your soul to the problem. Don’t let it take anything more away from you than it has, take something away from it.

I guarantee whatever it is that you are struggling with has something to offer you. Even if it just the opportunity to be thankful for what you have, there is always something. Don’t quit looking until find it.

That perseverance is your fight.

Your character…

Your strength…

Your sanity…

Your heart…

And your mind telling your problem that it will not defeat you…

That perseverance is who you are!

Social Networking…

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In a world of social networking we the people constantly have a means at our disposal to keep us connected to the people we lose physical connections with.  A chat box speaks now, a text window shares pictures, e-cards make us smile and show us that someone is thinking of us in a particular moment.  

I suppose what brings me to this conversation is the memorial service I attended a couple of days ago…it was my cousin Susie.  So many times it flew around from the mouths of my family that these are the only occasions that seem to bring us together anymore.  With such a huge family that is spread from coast to coast, it is hard to pull us all in together but when it happens it is always such a memorable event.  Even in such somber occasions we find ourselves celebrating more than mourning.  We were still missing some faces in the occasion but didn’t find ourselves thinking to much on who wasn’t there, just loving the hell out of who was.  We have always been a very close family, leaving cousins that we haven’t seen in over 15 years amazed because to them it was like they had never lost that connection.  We do have social media to thank for this.  It has given each of us a way to catch up and grow up with at least pictures and statuses into the lives that were at one time all but strangers to us.   Tid bits of knowledge into their lives not only makes us feel like we know our family but also gives us some great starting conversations when we see them again.  Unfortunately there is another side to this epidemic that doesn’t leave such a pleasant remnant of thoughts.  That is that a high percentage of these cousins that I stay updated on daily via social media, live within’ the borders of my own state.  Some only over a hour away and some a few hours away.  Hardly a distance that justifies only having media time for.  Has it given us a ready excuse not to get in our cars and go and enjoy some of these moments together as family?  To become a part of those pictures they post instead of just enjoying them on our computers…

My cousin Susie wasn’t computer savvy but she did live in Michigan and I hadn’t seen her in well over a year.  A regret I am afraid I will carry for a long time but one that woke me up to realize I don’t want to carry that same regret for any of my other cousins.  I think that next time I feel like hitting a name on my chat box because I am thinking about someone and want to talk, I am going to hit the escape key on the old keyboard, get in my car and go to actually have that conversation with them in person.  I will appreciate the social networking for keeping an eye on all of them but not for knowing them.  I bid each of you to do the same because you just never really know, do you?  

Traveling Words…

Traveling Words...

It’s hard to catch a word sometimes even more often to get it to land somewhere. Some times I feel as if my thoughts take my words on their own flight and forever remain in a vast breeze,…free but never finding a home to rest.